A year left to live?

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A question was asked of me last night. "What would you do with only a year left to live?"

Maybe a better question is: Why do we as believers live in complacency, dreaming up dreams as if we believe we can accurately plan out our next year, or as if we know the number of our days? It's arrogant and vain. I know this was a hypothetical and open-ended question, but I respond with a question because many of
 us live like we will have the chance to cross off a bucket list, or like we have some amount of authority to make grandiose decisions or thoughts other than what God has given us, or as if owning worldly possessions or having certain experiences might be the pinnacle of our fulfillment, as if dying with and raising with Christ isn't enough, or like it might amuse God for us to think big and pride ourselves for including Him in our thoughts. Jesus made Himself nothing (Philippians 2). David sought God's heart and Solomon sought wisdom, knowing all else was vanity. Generally speaking, we seek that vanity. 2 Corinthians 10:5 tells us to take all our thoughts captive to the knowledge of Christ, and to destroy lofty opinions.

Truthfully, we should be doing what we would do on our last day or last year every day, but then, if what we would do is completely irresponsible and selfish, why do it at all?

My husband and I actually tried to sell all our possessions a few months ago so we could have absolutely nothing but a few pairs of clothing and our books, but people in this economy aren't buying much, so we were stuck and now our garage is filled with our excess. (We're not going to bring it back in the house.) We felt the Lord had led us to do such, and so we obeyed. What we discovered is that God was testing our levels of commitment, though we thought it odd because of how easy for us it was to say "Sure, we don't need our dining room table, we can eat on the floor," and we did, for months, because things are going to get much worse for Christians in the near future. What in the world does an earthly table matter when we know we will dine with the LORD at His table beyond this crippled breath of a life? It was a tiny testimony, yet even my husband's parents were concerned that we were getting rid of so much. But why so many "things?" All they do is distract us from what's important.

Would we just get up and go? Take off somewhere without telling people that God wanted us to shift? Yes. Are we attached? Not even to our loved ones. Our consideration for our families looks like hatred compared to our love of God, and it's not for lack of love or consideration for others, because those who do know us personally know that we have love, for if we did not, we'd have nothing. But God's ripped our relationships apart just as Scripture said would happen, having been rejected for standing fast in the truth, and we'd rather be where God wants us to be than stay with people who might easily have a different direction or ministry from God. This isn't even to say we're going anywhere. I'm just telling you where our hearts are.

This isn't meant to be dramatic. Our lives are spiritually combative for the God-Man who saved us -- unto hunger, homelessness, poverty, robbery, slander, false accusations, sleepless nights, and daily attacks on our faith that we embrace and almost seek, keeping Romans 5:3-5 in mind, risking daily because nothing even remotely compares to knowing Jesus and living to bear witness to the truth.

Assume in the next few months or possibly few years, I'll be [at least] arrested for speaking the truth, along with my husband. Also assume I won't be on the internet much. I'll probably be in the woods running from people, surviving, and being hunted by those who hate Jesus, using every chance I have to tell people the Gospel, dodging stones and bullets. I have no better idea than that. My ambition in life is only to live for God's purposes. My own are fickle and pathetic. All I care about is getting the message across. I'll be the person shunned from most churches because when I go to tell them to repent, I'll be rejected, since "God loves them anyway." It's happened already a few times, and I know what I've seen is NOTHING compared to what it's going to be like soon. Serious stuff.

3am contemplations

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The more sober-minded I become, the more joyous my heart is. I'm not sure how to explain this paradox, except that when I read the truth, I want to own it, and it resonates someplace deep inside me that no human can touch, mangle, or destroy. It is God's and God's alone. Some people would not find pleasure in reading something so dark, but I enjoy Job in a way that I enjoy few other books of the Bible. There is much worship within each detail, no matter how dreary or sobering it may be. I pray that today when you open your Bible (and do open your Bible!), your spirit will be enriched, and that your enrichment will not be satisfied by consumption, but rather that through the outpouring of what you've been given by His good grace, you will seek to enrich others around you, for some unknowingly have entertained angels while entertaining strangers. This is true. The unsaved are not merely lost, as if it is a small thing, for in contrast, salvation is no small thing, yet it is a small thing, and even one so great, that God would send Christ on His behalf to rescue us from the punishment for our transgressions. What a masterpiece He is, full of affection and judgment, steadfast love and unfailing mercies beyond ourselves yet measuring through us by His own perfect law justly so that we might be judged according to our works. The more I seek Him the more I know Him, and the more I know Him, the more mysterious He becomes, yet in all this, my assurance of His omni-everything is built; conflicted yet ripened, tried in private and then openly rewarded. My words are fickle. May I be found a liar and let God be true, lest anything be brought against me in the case for Christ. Down with my humanity, up-rise the God-man Christ Jesus.

Job 15 (ESV)

Eliphaz Accuses: Job Does Not Fear God

1 Then Eliphaz the Temanite answered and said:
2 “Should a wise man answer with windy knowledge,
    and fill his belly with the east wind?
3 Should he argue in unprofitable talk,
    or in words with which he can do no good?
4 But you are doing away with the fear of God
    and hindering meditation before God.
5 For your iniquity teaches your mouth,
    and you choose the tongue of the crafty.
6 Your own mouth condemns you, and not I;
     your own lips testify against you.
7  “Are you the first man who was born?
    Or were you brought forth before the hills?
8 Have you listened in the council of God?
    And do you limit wisdom to yourself?
9  What do you know that we do not know?
    What do you understand that is not clear to us?
10  Both the gray-haired and the aged are among us,
    older than your father.
11 Are the comforts of God too small for you,
    or the word that deals gently with you?
12 Why does your heart carry you away,
    and why do your eyes flash,
13 that you turn your spirit against God
    and bring such words out of your mouth?
14  What is man, that he can be pure?
    Or he who is born of a woman, that he can be righteous?
15 Behold, God puts no trust in his holy ones,
    and the heavens are not pure in his sight;
16  how much less one who is abominable and corrupt,
    a man who drinks injustice like water!
17 “I will show you; hear me,
    and what I have seen I will declare
18 (what wise men have told,
    without hiding it from their fathers,
19 to whom alone the land was given,
    and no stranger passed among them).
20 The wicked man writhes in pain all his days,
    through all the years that are laid up for the ruthless.
21  Dreadful sounds are in his ears;
    in prosperity the destroyer will come upon him.
22 He does not believe that he will return out of darkness,
    and he is marked for the sword.
23 He wanders abroad for bread, saying, ‘Where is it?’
    He knows that a day of darkness is ready at his hand;
24 distress and anguish terrify him;
    they prevail against him, like a king ready for battle.
25 Because he has stretched out his hand against God
    and defies the Almighty,
26  running stubbornly against him
    with a thickly bossed shield;
27 because he has covered his face with his fat
    and gathered fat upon his waist
28 and has lived in desolate cities,
    in houses that none should inhabit,
    which were ready to become heaps of ruins;
29 he will not be rich, and his wealth will not endure,
    nor will his possessions spread over the earth;
30 he will not depart from darkness;
    the flame will dry up his shoots,
    and by the breath of his mouth he will depart.
31 Let him not trust in emptiness, deceiving himself,
    for emptiness will be his payment.
32 It will be paid in full before his time,
    and his branch will not be green.
33 He will shake off his unripe grape like the vine,
    and cast off his blossom like the olive tree.
34 For the company of the godless is barren,
    and fire consumes the tents of bribery.
35 They conceive trouble and give birth to evil,
    and their womb prepares deceit.”

Denominations

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I haven't a clue which denomination of Christianity I subscribe to, and... I don't think it matters. I am asked all the time, and I understand the importance of asking, because doctrinal beliefs absolutely matter, but it's far more profitable to ask people if they agree to actual Bible verses that denominations by which their respective churches may or may not even live up to the confessions they state on their websites (or in manuals). Some of you know exactly what I'm talking about.

I confuse people because I don't know what denomination I belong to, yet people confuse me because they can't figure out whether or not a person is Christian based on their fruit, and furthermore, many Christians these days tell me that they can make sense out of a denomination, but can't figure out what I mean by fruit. Baptist? Fine. Just don't rag on those who baptize their infants. It's not leading them to hell. Don't debate to the point of division within the Body. It helps no one and makes those outside the faith point mockingly at us. Granted, they don't understand the truth, but it's still a lousy witness. Pentecostal? I don't care, but if you lift up holy hands and praise with your tongue but live only outwardly and publicly in your praise, you'll be judged for it. Lutheran? I don't care, but you do seem like one small step away from being Catholic. Nazarene, I really don't care, but there is much more to God than His love and His benevolent compassion. I don't like being spoken to as if I don't know of His love or His compassion, for how can a person present the gospel without speaking of it? I don't know.

Catholic, though? God makes and keeps people saved, and there's nothing I OR you can do about it. I have one father, he isn't in your church, and if I as a believer cannot partake of communion with wine, neither should you. The Bible you claim you know teaches many things that you reject, but you say you are the true Church. Growing apart from a Catholic-indoctrinated family myself, I can't and won't call you Christian if you abide by the official doctrines of the Catholic church. Your dogma leads you to Mary. Not to Jesus; the ONLY Person who's beaten death and can hear our prayers as well as answer them. Mormon? Nope, not Christian, either. I can't worship a god who once sinned and grew in his godliness, and I can't worship a god who wants me to be as powerful as he is someday. God is, was, and always will be unchanging. He's holy and He didn't become holy eventually. And Joseph Smith can call me a liar all he wants from his grave for this, but um... no, he did not see the Father. No one can. Part of telling the truth is pointing out the lies. I could continue, but I don't need to.

I'm not against denominations entirely. I just don't see the importance of them. I see denominations as little more than spiritual sir-names, in which different families cling to familiarity, do things the way they want them to be done in their households, and while they welcome others, they have their "house rules," if I may. Sometimes they're great, enriching one another and ministering to other body parts of the Body of Christ, and sometimes there are really nasty arguments between these families/denominations, and so long as with these families also come cultural and ethnic differences, desires for the Body at large that are being underhanded or ignored, and concerns for certain "Body parts" that need mending. But they all have to work together, or else like a house of cards, they crumble. I see the snarls and sneers from people sometimes, or even just in text, and I think "well, that's awfully petty." People say "don't judge me" and then turn right around and gossip in their bitterness, as if it's okay to do that. We can share ideas, questions, and concerns and disagree on them as long as they aren't essential to the faith, for there is no room for disagreement or denial of the essentials of the Christian faith. Sticking to Scripture should NOT be that hard for those who claim to love the Lord. Some know more than others, and teachers are wonderful, but there is no greater teacher than God Himself. Does not the Lord speak through His Word, or must we dissect everything even beyond the scope of historical-grammatical hermeneutics? No! This becomes a problem for many because they seek knowledge and study the Bible correctly and even STILL, there are mysteries. Yet they take offense to the mystery and cling to theories the way atheists do, all for the sake of a hope that they believe they need beyond the hope of seeing Jesus face to face, as if being of Him is not enough. Dwell on the mysteries. May you be stupified and humbled so that the Lord can teach you. God does desire to give us wisdom, but He'll give it His way. Not ours. Those who are greatest among us are the ones who serve the least of the least and do not seek honor for what they speak. It is God who raises up a man or takes him out.

We CAN accurately judge what is right and wrong according to Scripture. So really, what candle does a denomination hold up that may be a light to the world in of itself? It might be a tall cast of wax, but there is no wick, and if there perhaps could be a wick, the only fire by which that wick might be lit will be the fire of judgment from God, but we shall not desire to play with that fire, lest we become even less than nothing, set aside for His garden of wrath. I understand the problem people have with organized religion if this is what they hint at: the man-made worship that sets itself against itself because God is not at the center. If in fact God is at the center, however, the "organization" of the religion will turn people off much more than a denomination title, because there are very few who are truly set apart for His righteousness. There are few who rejoice in rebuke, as they know that chastens and disciplines those He loves. They rather than being burnt up are sealed by the light of Christ, and THAT is the light by which the Word is revealed; the truth in which any of us might be set free. For unto him who believes is everlasting life.

Abide by the Word. Live it. Breathe it. Love it. Share it. I am reformed and yes, I do agree with the five points of Calvinism, but get this --- I don't follow a man-made religion, AND, Calvinism is not a denomination. Calvin wasn't trying to put separation between God and man. He was just a well-known individual in his day who looked around at the heresies being taught around him and said "No! This isn't right! The Bible says 'this!' Not 'that!'" His thoughts and his teachings were not original. Not by a long shot.

Concluding, I'm devoted to God though I may never know what denomination I ascribe to. I've been to all types of Christian churches. My interest is in demolishing areas of pride in myself and reminding people that no matter what they call themselves within the camp of Christianity, it's not only God who looks at their hearts, but also people. We can't know each other's hearts fully, but yes, we want to, and out of our hearts come our words, our actions, and yet all sorts of evil things that defile a person. Know this: I am watching you. I am paying attention to what you speak of, how you speak of it, and how you live despite what church you go to. I may disagree with what you're doing and I might well voice it, but I'm still watching you, just as you are watching me, taking note of where my faith brings me.

I wasn't going to write about this

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There are things that you don't know about what I deal with as a result of this blog: Things I shy away from bringing up because I don't want to throw a pity party or appear to be a woman who sits in front of the tv with a pint of ice cream, as that isn't my style. I also don't want to be counted as arrogant, which is what happens commonly, though daily I care less about the names and more about just speaking what is true. Praise God I have legitimate trials and don't whine about, well, never mind.

There is a time to divulge information, and I wait on God for that timing so that I don't unnecessarily cause anyone grief, including myself. I don't want your attention on me, but rather on God. I am, after all, only keeping this blog running because I see how God uses it, and part of being used by God no matter what medium it happens through, is good. It's never bad to be a vessel for God's honor. It takes an enormous amount of vulnerability, but I know that in order to love God, I must obey His commandments, and that means I have to love others. You can't love people without being vulnerable and humble, and serving them.

Some readers assume that a blog is written through the quiet times and stability. But the reason I don't post vacation pictures or pictures from new crafts or clothing or shopping extravaganzas because I never do those things. My quiet times are spent weeping for the lost and weeping for the arrogant, confessing my sins, praying for strength to get through today, praying for everyone God lays on my mind and heart, reading things that will build my strength and courage up, and giving thanks to God for what I have overlooked all day long while unable to pray for multiple things and people and sins. God can think about all things and all people at all times, but I can't. I'm a little limited in that department. ; )

On my blog, I can't talk about current deployments or homecomings, because they're things of my past, but  I'm where I am because I'm supposed to be. It isn't a party, but I'm not walking around with my nose up, roaring at people who don't give me what I think I deserve. There are no balloons in my life, and there is no pomp and circumstance. There is freedom in simplicity, so I meditate on the truth. There is pain and there are rewards for hard work. My character grows. My garden does not.

I consistently take a lot of heat from the military community for talking about Post-Traumatic Stress and Traumatic Brain Injuries with a reformed Christian perspective. I've been uninvited to military speaking engagements by Chaplains as a result of this, have had emails go unanswered or ignored by others because I spoke truth instead of fluffing feathers, I've been asked to leave support groups online, and have been slandered publicly on blogs. I don't ask people not to judge me. If they want to, that's on them. If they're wrong, God have mercy on them. I still love them, and I still pray for them, especially if they hate me.

I'm coming at the whole war on terror and battle of the mind from a very unpopular angle. When I need encouragement about these things, I can't even turn to sisters in the military community. I have met few in Christian communities who are blunt enough and bold enough to talk to military personnel or dependents. It's lonely! I am gossiped about, I am slandered, I am ignored, I am rejected, and I am shunned. My husband deals with even more than I do, but I'm not going to write about his trials without his permission. It's happened more than once from people who claimed to be full of love and community.

What bothers me most is that all I don't lack boldness, but there are so few people who are willing to listen. No matter what, there's some qualification I have failed to meet in order to be able to speak to so and so. These are not limitations I have placed on myself. I live in a world and culture that pretends a piece of paper is the pinnacle of preparedness, but it's preposterous, because preparedness is a matter of emotional, physical, and spiritual alertness, training, knowledge and wisdom.

I truthfully believe most people will take any precaution necessary to avoid confrontation, even at the expense of the well-being of others, but especially at the expense of their own character growth. There are very few who can stand up in the midst of confrontation, still shouting the truth with all the love they have in them, and fewer who do so with a motive that is beyond a love of self. I am speaking this to the unsaved as well as "highly-educated" chaplains and pastors, since there seems to be almost no difference between council members and reprobates in this respect.

If you're unwilling to do the hard work and humble yourselves so that you can minister to others effectively, put your shoes back on. Don't dog on those Christians who are not washing your feet "correctly" since you refuse to even get your hands dirty. Praise God there are Christians who don't enable or cater to hypocrisy in their lives or in the lives of others.

Some of you will say I sound like I need a dose of humility. I've been humbled. That's why I'm able to say these things with full conviction. I warn people and they insult me. I speak the truth and then I'm slandered. My own family rejected me years ago. Do you understand? This is DAILY for me, living on the line for Christ just to be rejected by those who claim to love Him. What do you think it looks like to bear a burden and be mocked by the ignorant? This is my cross. What does yours look like?

I know what lies ahead for you who fail to repent. Do I care if I go to your meetings and conferences? Do I lose sleep when I respond to what appears to be someone searching for a friend and I try to befriend them and I never hear from them again? No. These things are the mass majority, of people looking for an answer and being discouraged because "they didn't ask for this," and "the answer is too hard." Walking down a dark alley is easier, so they go with that.

I didn't ask for my life to pan out the way it has, either. I'm not above you. I just didn't give up. I didn't get any advice. Books weren't out yet about PTSD for my husband and I. Retreats for spouses didn't exist. Do you not have a clue how easy it is for you? How much easier it is for you than it was for my husband and I?

Pull through it if you're determined. Do or die, right? Failure simply isn't an option if you put it out of your mind. It's not easy or possible to just "get over it," and I'm not saying that, so don't hear what I am not saying. I am saying you guys reject the truth because it doesn't sound right, and then you wonder why life seems so impossible and hopeless. Stop looking to people for answers and look to God instead. The only reason it doesn't sound right is because you don't know the truth. If the truth was in you, you would embrace more of it. Chaplains wonder why spiritual growth is so stunted in the military, but we don't wonder. The answer is right in front of their faces.

I'm telling you right now that my husband and I have valuable information about God in PTSD/TBI and God in government and God in CHURCH that you willfully overlook for the sake of money and a wide audience. But ask us to speak and I almost guarantee you, you will be hated as much as we are by thousands.

Why would we be hated by people who talk about love and healing and ache for it in their lives? Because people hate Jesus and we represent Him. He loved and healed, but He called people to repent and believe in Him, and to live in such a way that proved their repentance and faith true. That's basic Christianity 101. Don't forget that neither the military nor an MDiv exempts a person from the truth or the consequences of rejecting it. Being blown up in combat doesn't mean God overlooks sins and holds the mangled to a different standard, and being able to recite the Westminster Confession of Faith will be your elaborate downfall if you disengage yourself from the matters of the heart with the lame, the weak, and the crippled by life who are further crippled by those who enable stunted growth. In many cases, these warriors get suicidal because the fluffy spiritual answers people give them are just fluff, and they can't make the connection between war and the fluff. I haven't had my brain messed up from combat and I can't connect the two either, so I'm not sure who these "highly educated" spiritual leaders think they're kidding. If you missed my post about PTSD in the Old Testament, check it out.

You're not above God, sir or ma'am. You're subject to God's rule and judgment just as much as the man you secretly or not-so-secretly think you are better than because you served and he didn't. But sure. Keep those seats warm, guys. Keep at it. You're turning people into sheeple and rejoicing because your programs are growing as a result of coddles and ear-tickling but are void of the combative spiritual training that the men need in order to be men and lead regardless of their limps, missing pieces, and tangled memories. Why can't those who have fully-functioning and uninjured brains figure this out? Either they know the truth and live a lie, or they don't know the truth and they are still living a lie. Are they merely deceived like thousands even though they are in places of spiritual leadership? Do we blame the government for even silencing chaplains who pray in Jesus' name, or will not a chaplain do what is right even if this world says it is wrong? All of it leads to judgment. All of it.

Wake up, Christians.

I'll sleep when I'm dead

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Just in the last few days I have been honored with praise for my blog, I've made some great new Christian friends, I was able to give someone some much needed encouragement after an attempted suicide, I relocated my family to another house so our bathroom could be gutted (the floor rotted and the landlord didn't take care of it), spent a few nights without sleep (and successfully lost the key- UGH!), drained my first porti-potty (and spilled some -YUCK!), made friends with someone in Bulgaria, got to play match maker, made a killer potato soup, was able to go food shopping for the first time in weeks, read my son the whole book of 2 Chronicles and talked about why there is good and evil in this world, watched Downfall with my husband, and lost some weight due to stress, but gained joy and restoration through Christ. I'm still content.

Next Saturday, this is taking place about 30 minutes from me. My husband and I are going to check it out. The white nationalist movement in America desperately needs the gospel.

It's only Thursday. What will the rest of the week look like?

Evangelized by a Muslim

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I was evangelized by a Muslim today (while doing karaoke!) and I can't tell you how good it felt to say "I'd rather die crucified than give into Islam. And I am aware that Muslims are violent toward unbleievers who refuse to convert. But there is no other way by which we might be saved than through Jesus Christ, the Son of God who forgives my sin and gives me assurance of salvation."

The whole of their persuasion... was that it's the fastest growing religion on the earth. And that "the Quran says "La ikraha fi deen" Which means "There is no compulsion in religion", A true Muslim would never force someone to accept islam"

I said "Many will reject the truth. All you're doing is proving the Bible to be true with what you say."

They said "Give yourself the chance to search the truth with your heart and you will know that Islam is it.

I said "You know that's what Mormons and Jehovah's Witnesses say, too. May you come to a saving knowledge of Jesus Christ."

He said "There is no god but allah and mohammed is the messenger of allah and jesus is the messenger of allah"

I said "If Jesus was the messenger of Allah, you'd be led to the cross of Christ. Not to Islam. Muhammad and Jesus brought two different gospels. Allah needs you to sin so he has something to forgive you for. And you can commit taqiyya*** in order to preserve yourself if you feel threatened, where as Christ is all I need. I don't need to be deceitful toward outsiders to con them into a religion that doesn't give assurance of salvation.

He said "surely you don't read your book , Jesus is only a prophet of god but people made him god and believe me every christian will go to hell as he don't search for the truth." (Funny thing about this is all I did in the conversation was quote Scripture that I knew from memory in proper context. He didn't detect this because he didn't really know the Bible as well as he made himself out to know it.)

I said "But in Christianity, there is hope, eternal hope, and that hope was given to us by Christ's crucifixion, that we might repent of our sins, have our trangressions forgiven completely, and live in faith. Muslims don't have this option. They are stuck under opression. They don't have eternal hope. They hope that they might be good enough some day to appease Allah. But in my religion, God is good enough, and His grace is sufficient. Christ's sacrifice was enough. I can live freely in obedience to Him by loving Him and loving others. Jesus is Lord. He is more than a prophet. Yet you contradict yourself because if he was a prophet of Allah as you say, you wouldn't have such a problem with people worshiping Him."

He said "Please search for truth and compare and judge with your heart with honesty"

I said "There is none who is righteous. No one seeks God. God saves. People do not save themselves. They cannot."

The guy was 22, he said. Pray for him.

People tell me you have to go way out of your way to get into a conversation with Muslims or be questioned, or even to evangelize. All I had to do was sing a song from The Secret Garden on Paltalk. Granted, I may not have worded things the best I could (and I'm sure I didn't), but at least he got the basics of the differences down. Or... a couple of them. I know there are many more. I hope this encourages you to open up and talk to people more, even if you don't have all the right wording.

"but in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect," 1 Peter 3:15 (ESV)


***Muslims many times will shrug it off, saying it is just a Shi'a Muslim tactic of only about 10% of Muslims overall, for those Muslims who feel threatened. But the stupid thing is that the 90% doesn't penalize those "10%" for doing that, so they contradict themselves openly. It's more than 10%, too, but that's what they say. It's obvious that they are lying and are okay with it because when you ask if the religion is peaceful, they say yes, of course. Peaceful inwardly perhaps, among there own people who submit to Sharia law, but peaceful for the rest of those who don't believe? Absolutely not. There's no harmony, nor can there be.
What kind of straight-forward person says two people with completely differing messages are prophets? One therefore testifies to the truth and the other does not, but I don't hear Muslims say that they think Jesus is a "false prophet." They try to side with me and say He was a prophet just like Muhammad. No true prophet speaks words of God that are lies. Muslims think we are complete idiots.

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Down a few notches

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There is hype everywhere. Competition everywhere. Addiction everywhere, no matter what avenue I take an interest in. Ads are thrown in my face no matter what website I visit, what store I go to, or what town I am in, and I find that the road less traveled falls prey to the corporate hype, too. Is there no way out or away from it if I am to live in (but not of) this world? I have contemplated doing completely away with the internet on more than one occasion. Haven't watched tv but for one year out of the last ten.

I want to slow my mind down. Make the voices stop shouting "you need this," "you know you want this," "this would look so good in your house," "oh, your husband would love this," and "your son needs this for a quality education," "you're a failure as a wife if you don't help your husband every time he doesn't voice his need," etc... I want to go up into the mountains and get away from it all, only going into the mountains won't solve this problem. It's internal. It's life. It's my memory. I remember what I ought to forget and I forget what I ought to remember. I'm told I'm way too hard on myself, but my standards for myself are high, and I believe as high as they are, they're realistic and attainable, because I'm Christian. I'm more than a conqueror through Christ Jesus.

My desire to know more [about so many things] overwhelms me, too. My want to learn, to grow, and to succeed drives me to my wit's end. And I desire so much to learn that I'm able to process very little. I have an overactive mind and need to spend more quiet time with the Lord is all.

I have some unmet needs. I'm not posting them here, as the web is not worthy of my personal life.

I'm struggling to keep friendships with people, and half of the reason is that I don't really care to exert energy that is rarely reciprocated. It's not for a lack of love. It's a hatred for one-sided communication, and I am not simply pointing fingers at others, but at myself. I'm learning how NOT to cast pearls before swine, and while I walk a lonely road, it's a blessed one because I'm sinning less or not at all in areas which many destroyed me, especially within the loving confines of my marriage. I don't give my very personal information out to many. Maybe to two or three. I can say that husband and I have had a very rocky road recently and our marriage almost faced utter ruin. I'm learning daily to pour myself out even more every day with God and with my husband and son and I have no desire to explain everything. Keeping friends who care out of the loop obviously increases isolation, but I have no ill-will toward any of them and can only pray they show me grace. I was the problem. I also repented and am making appropriate changes. God had mercy. May I be a better helper to my husband and may his leadership grow in all respects because of my open respect for him and God.

The more I study and the more I read, the less I like people, and yet the more I desire to be a good witness to them for the sake of the gospel with the forgiving and merciful love that God has shown me. Every breath I take is a paradox. Every struggle I endure reflects my love of God. Every thought I have does the same. Everything's magnified because my life is devoted to worship in Spirit and in truth. God sustains me when I often want to give up. I'm unable to quit. No truly regenerate person can. I just need to rest and quiet the extra calls for help so that I can be an example through Jesus to my own household. I don't go on quiet walks just to be with the Lord and pray very often. I must change this. I want to be exactly who I am supposed to be and be content without shortcuts and quick fixes. May I crave prayer more than a certain meal or compliment from my better half. May I glorify God in the slow-simmer of hopes differed, dreams obliterated, doors closed, and relationships crumbled. He didn't call my family to an easy life. It's hard. May I absorb more in Scripture than before. May I push myself and challenge myself to remain joyful in all circumstances consistently because I am doing the Lord's work, rather than dwell on what is wrong with everything and everyone. (I want November over with.)

Doped by the DoD

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I have thoughts about PTSD veterans, and some of you may not like 'em, but I ran them by Nicholas and he agrees, so that's good enough for me.

After much time observing and more time in prayer, I have concluded that by immobilizing our armed forces' infantrymen and diagnosing thousands with PTSD, we have drugged up our most valuable combat-trained men and women and led them to believe they are incapable victims rather than warriors and natural-born fighters, and given money not just to those who need it, but also to many who have purchased a famed entitlement mentality at the cost of their integrity and sometimes their sanity. I know this is angering several of you, but I'm not asking you to like me. I'm asking you to hear me. That's all.

These men should be out there fighting! They're still capable. (Yes, they ARE.) I believe the mass diagnosing of PTSD in the US military from the Dept of Defense was a way of deteriorating and weakening its military from the inside. Think about it. How much of our intelligence is being drowned out by Seroquel, Topamax, and Depakote? And if you ask the guys, many of them will tell you they're not even sure the pills are helping. They're in a fog all damn day.

I bet a bunch of spouses and disgruntled vets are currently thinking "My husband should be defending this country right now and fighting with their brothers against the Muslim Brotherhood in Africa but the DoD says he's unfit." There are currently civilians walking around in towns openly carrying shotguns to guard their cribs. How much more can a trained veteran do?

There will come a time, mark my works, when you'll be able to (and you'll have to) fight from your own town and your orders will come from your gut. Your commanding officer will be your conscience.

I'm telling you -- you get your man a flak and some ammo. Let him go do what needs doing! You'll be thankful later if you're not already.

I wasn't going to write about this

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There are things that you don't know about what I deal with as a result of this blog: Things I shy away from bringing up because I don't want to throw a pity party or appear to be a woman who sits in front of the tv with a pint of ice cream, as that isn't my style. I also don't want to be counted as arrogant, which is what happens commonly, though daily I care less about the names and more about just speaking what is true. Praise God I have legitimate trials and don't whine about, well, never mind.

There is a time to divulge information, and I wait on God for that timing so that I don't unnecessarily cause anyone grief, including myself. I don't want your attention on me, but rather on God. I am, after all, only keeping this blog running because I see how God uses it, and part of being used by God no matter what medium it happens through, is good. It's never bad to be a vessel for God's honor. It takes an enormous amount of vulnerability, but I know that in order to love God, I must obey His commandments, and that means I have to love others. You can't love people without being vulnerable and humble, and serving them.

Some readers assume that a blog is written through the quiet times and stability. But the reason I don't post vacation pictures or pictures from new crafts or clothing or shopping extravaganzas because I never do those things. My quiet times are spent weeping for the lost and weeping for the arrogant, confessing my sins, praying for strength to get through today, praying for everyone God lays on my mind and heart, reading things that will build my strength and courage up, and giving thanks to God for what I have overlooked all day long while unable to pray for multiple things and people and sins. God can think about all things and all people at all times, but I can't. I'm a little limited in that department. ; )

On my blog, I can't talk about current deployments or homecomings, because they're things of my past, but  I'm where I am because I'm supposed to be. It isn't a party, but I'm not walking around with my nose up, roaring at people who don't give me what I think I deserve. There are no balloons in my life, and there is no pomp and circumstance. There is freedom in simplicity, so I meditate on the truth. There is pain and there are rewards for hard work. My character grows. My garden does not.

I consistently take a lot of heat from the military community for talking about Post-Traumatic Stress and Traumatic Brain Injuries with a reformed Christian perspective. I've been uninvited to military speaking engagements by Chaplains as a result of this, have had emails go unanswered or ignored by others because I spoke truth instead of fluffing feathers, I've been asked to leave support groups online, and have been slandered publicly on blogs. I don't ask people not to judge me. If they want to, that's on them. If they're wrong, God have mercy on them. I still love them, and I still pray for them, especially if they hate me.

I'm coming at the whole war on terror and battle of the mind from a very unpopular angle. When I need encouragement about these things, I can't even turn to sisters in the military community. I have met few in Christian communities who are blunt enough and bold enough to talk to military personnel or dependents. It's lonely! I am gossiped about, I am slandered, I am ignored, I am rejected, and I am shunned. My husband deals with even more than I do, but I'm not going to write about his trials without his permission. It's happened more than once from people who claimed to be full of love and community.

What bothers me most is that all I don't lack boldness, but there are so few people who are willing to listen. No matter what, there's some qualification I have failed to meet in order to be able to speak to so and so. These are not limitations I have placed on myself. I live in a world and culture that pretends a piece of paper is the pinnacle of preparedness, but it's preposterous, because preparedness is a matter of emotional, physical, and spiritual alertness, training, knowledge and wisdom.

I truthfully believe most people will take any precaution necessary to avoid confrontation, even at the expense of the well-being of others, but especially at the expense of their own character growth. There are very few who can stand up in the midst of confrontation, still shouting the truth with all the love they have in them, and fewer who do so with a motive that is beyond a love of self. I am speaking this to the unsaved as well as "highly-educated" chaplains and pastors, since there seems to be almost no difference between council members and reprobates in this respect.

If you're unwilling to do the hard work and humble yourselves so that you can minister to others effectively, put your shoes back on. Don't dog on those Christians who are not washing your feet "correctly" since you refuse to even get your hands dirty. Praise God there are Christians who don't enable or cater to hypocrisy in their lives or in the lives of others.

Some of you will say I sound like I need a dose of humility. I've been humbled. That's why I'm able to say these things with full conviction. I warn people and they insult me. I speak the truth and then I'm slandered. My own family rejected me years ago. Do you understand? This is DAILY for me, living on the line for Christ just to be rejected by those who claim to love Him. What do you think it looks like to bear a burden and be mocked by the ignorant? This is my cross. What does yours look like?

I know what lies ahead for you who fail to repent. Do I care if I go to your meetings and conferences? Do I lose sleep when I respond to what appears to be someone searching for a friend and I try to befriend them and I never hear from them again? No. These things are the mass majority, of people looking for an answer and being discouraged because "they didn't ask for this," and "the answer is too hard." Walking down a dark alley is easier, so they go with that.

I didn't ask for my life to pan out the way it has, either. I'm not above you. I just didn't give up. I didn't get any advice. Books weren't out yet about PTSD for my husband and I. Retreats for spouses didn't exist. Do you not have a clue how easy it is for you? How much easier it is for you than it was for my husband and I?

Pull through it if you're determined. Do or die, right? Failure simply isn't an option if you put it out of your mind. It's not easy or possible to just "get over it," and I'm not saying that, so don't hear what I am not saying. I am saying you guys reject the truth because it doesn't sound right, and then you wonder why life seems so impossible and hopeless. Stop looking to people for answers and look to God instead. The only reason it doesn't sound right is because you don't know the truth. If the truth was in you, you would embrace more of it. Chaplains wonder why spiritual growth is so stunted in the military, but we don't wonder. The answer is right in front of their faces.

I'm telling you right now that my husband and I have valuable information about God in PTSD/TBI and God in government and God in CHURCH that you willfully overlook for the sake of money and a wide audience. But ask us to speak and I almost guarantee you, you will be hated as much as we are by thousands.

Why would we be hated by people who talk about love and healing and ache for it in their lives? Because people hate Jesus and we represent Him. He loved and healed, but He called people to repent and believe in Him, and to live in such a way that proved their repentance and faith true. That's basic Christianity 101. Don't forget that neither the military nor an MDiv exempts a person from the truth or the consequences of rejecting it. Being blown up in combat doesn't mean God overlooks sins and holds the mangled to a different standard, and being able to recite the Westminster Confession of Faith will be your elaborate downfall if you disengage yourself from the matters of the heart with the lame, the weak, and the crippled by life who are further crippled by those who enable stunted growth. In many cases, these warriors get suicidal because the fluffy spiritual answers people give them are just fluff, and they can't make the connection between war and the fluff. I haven't had my brain messed up from combat and I can't connect the two either, so I'm not sure who these "highly educated" spiritual leaders think they're kidding. If you missed my post about PTSD in the Old Testament, check it out.

You're not above God, sir or ma'am. You're subject to God's rule and judgment just as much as the man you secretly or not-so-secretly think you are better than because you served and he didn't. But sure. Keep those seats warm, guys. Keep at it. You're turning people into sheeple and rejoicing because your programs are growing as a result of coddles and ear-tickling but are void of the combative spiritual training that the men need in order to be men and lead regardless of their limps, missing pieces, and tangled memories. Why can't those who have fully-functioning and uninjured brains figure this out? Either they know the truth and live a lie, or they don't know the truth and they are still living a lie. Are they merely deceived like thousands even though they are in places of spiritual leadership? Do we blame the government for even silencing chaplains who pray in Jesus' name, or will not a chaplain do what is right even if this world says it is wrong? All of it leads to judgment. All of it.

Wake up, Christians.

I'll sleep when I'm dead

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Just in the last few days I have been honored with praise for my blog, I've made some great new Christian friends, I was able to give someone some much needed encouragement after an attempted suicide, I relocated my family to another house so our bathroom could be gutted (the floor rotted and the landlord didn't take care of it), spent a few nights without sleep (and successfully lost the key- UGH!), drained my first porti-potty (and spilled some -YUCK!), made friends with someone in Bulgaria, got to play match maker, made a killer potato soup, was able to go food shopping for the first time in weeks, read my son the whole book of 2 Chronicles and talked about why there is good and evil in this world, watched Downfall with my husband, and lost some weight due to stress, but gained joy and restoration through Christ. I'm still content.

Next Saturday, this is taking place about 30 minutes from me. My husband and I are going to check it out. The white nationalist movement in America desperately needs the gospel.

It's only Thursday. What will the rest of the week look like?

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I know...I have not posted anything in a long time...LIFE often has a way of crowding in...AND IF I were to list ALL the things that have been going on it would take a while so I will just say we have had 3 friends go home to Heaven, some "not needed" excitement with the grandchildren (ex...car wreck...no one hurt thankfully) among several other "things" these past several weeks.

In the midst of all of this we were blessed to be able to still get to Branson, MO for Veterans week. This is something we look forward to every year and would hate to miss. We said we would NOT be as busy this year...BUT that was actually not to be. I mean HOW could we not try to do as much as possible when there is so much to see and do all of this week!

This year my brother Mike returned and brought his wife Vicki this time. He enjoyed last year so much he had to come back....AND this year Vicki also decided that this is a great place to be for Veterans week...so I think we shall see them there again next year!

We were blessed to be able to spend a lot of our time at the Day Room which is run by our dear friends Chip and Sandy Milner. They are there from opening to closing...greeting and chatting with all the veterans who come there to spend some time visiting with others. This year Eddie took his guitar and was able to spend some time playing and singing with the other veterans who also came prepared to "jam". On one of our visits Penny Gilly was there and sang along with the group. She came several times before her show and spent time with all of us. The Day Room has really become a great gathering place for veterans while in Branson for this week.

It is always such a joy to see all of the friends we have made on past trips here...
Veterans week has become a sort of reunion for us! Diane and Bill "Doc" Storm come all the way from Michigan each year and we enjoy our time with them as well as all the others we've come to know.

Eddie was asked to wear his uniform to the Oak Ridge Boys show...not told any more than that! When we got there he was taken back stage! BUT I had to stay out in the audience! Then after a few songs Pat Avery was introduced and she presented Eddie and Joe Bonsall each with their own Spirit Award ...for outstanding contributions to the preservation of America's history. NOW who would have ever thought that one day Eddie would be on stage with the Oak Ridge Boys one day AND get a standing ovation! Life is often so amazing and we are having some wonderful times!

This year Branson had a Marine Corps Ball and Eddie was asked to participate in the cake cutting ceremony. He carried in the sword to cut the cake. Lt Col Oliver North was the guest speaker so this was truly an honor to be a part of this event. We enjoyed hearing Lt Col North speak and were so glad to be able to meet him. Like I said...life is amazing! We have been blessed to be able to do many wonderful things and meet so many wonderful people! The Ball was great fun and I hope that it will become an annual event...since we often have to miss the Ball in Oklahoma when it is scheduled during Veterans week.

We are already looking forward to Veterans week in Branson next year. Its a great place to be and the place we want to be!

I'll do my best to stay on top of things and not stay away too long...that is unless I need for some of you to call me again! YES...I got phone calls wondering why I had not posted anything AND actually that was rather nice...cuz that means someone is actually reading this! Thanks!

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I wasn't going to write about this

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There are things that you don't know about what I deal with as a result of this blog: Things I shy away from bringing up because I don't want to throw a pity party or appear to be a woman who sits in front of the tv with a pint of ice cream, as that isn't my style. I also don't want to be counted as arrogant, which is what happens commonly, though daily I care less about the names and more about just speaking what is true. Praise God I have legitimate trials and don't whine about, well, never mind.

There is a time to divulge information, and I wait on God for that timing so that I don't unnecessarily cause anyone grief, including myself. I don't want your attention on me, but rather on God. I am, after all, only keeping this blog running because I see how God uses it, and part of being used by God no matter what medium it happens through, is good. It's never bad to be a vessel for God's honor. It takes an enormous amount of vulnerability, but I know that in order to love God, I must obey His commandments, and that means I have to love others. You can't love people without being vulnerable and humble, and serving them.

Some readers assume that a blog is written through the quiet times and stability. But the reason I don't post vacation pictures or pictures from new crafts or clothing or shopping extravaganzas because I never do those things. My quiet times are spent weeping for the lost and weeping for the arrogant, confessing my sins, praying for strength to get through today, praying for everyone God lays on my mind and heart, reading things that will build my strength and courage up, and giving thanks to God for what I have overlooked all day long while unable to pray for multiple things and people and sins. God can think about all things and all people at all times, but I can't. I'm a little limited in that department. ; )

On my blog, I can't talk about current deployments or homecomings, because they're things of my past, but  I'm where I am because I'm supposed to be. It isn't a party, but I'm not walking around with my nose up, roaring at people who don't give me what I think I deserve. There are no balloons in my life, and there is no pomp and circumstance. There is freedom in simplicity, so I meditate on the truth. There is pain and there are rewards for hard work. My character grows. My garden does not.

I consistently take a lot of heat from the military community for talking about Post-Traumatic Stress and Traumatic Brain Injuries with a reformed Christian perspective. I've been uninvited to military speaking engagements by Chaplains as a result of this, have had emails go unanswered or ignored by others because I spoke truth instead of fluffing feathers, I've been asked to leave support groups online, and have been slandered publicly on blogs. I don't ask people not to judge me. If they want to, that's on them. If they're wrong, God have mercy on them. I still love them, and I still pray for them, especially if they hate me.

I'm coming at the whole war on terror and battle of the mind from a very unpopular angle. When I need encouragement about these things, I can't even turn to sisters in the military community. I have met few in Christian communities who are blunt enough and bold enough to talk to military personnel or dependents. It's lonely! I am gossiped about, I am slandered, I am ignored, I am rejected, and I am shunned. My husband deals with even more than I do, but I'm not going to write about his trials without his permission. It's happened more than once from people who claimed to be full of love and community.

What bothers me most is that all I don't lack boldness, but there are so few people who are willing to listen. No matter what, there's some qualification I have failed to meet in order to be able to speak to so and so. These are not limitations I have placed on myself. I live in a world and culture that pretends a piece of paper is the pinnacle of preparedness, but it's preposterous, because preparedness is a matter of emotional, physical, and spiritual alertness, training, knowledge and wisdom.

I truthfully believe most people will take any precaution necessary to avoid confrontation, even at the expense of the well-being of others, but especially at the expense of their own character growth. There are very few who can stand up in the midst of confrontation, still shouting the truth with all the love they have in them, and fewer who do so with a motive that is beyond a love of self. I am speaking this to the unsaved as well as "highly-educated" chaplains and pastors, since there seems to be almost no difference between council members and reprobates in this respect.

If you're unwilling to do the hard work and humble yourselves so that you can minister to others effectively, put your shoes back on. Don't dog on those Christians who are not washing your feet "correctly" since you refuse to even get your hands dirty. Praise God there are Christians who don't enable or cater to hypocrisy in their lives or in the lives of others.

Some of you will say I sound like I need a dose of humility. I've been humbled. That's why I'm able to say these things with full conviction. I warn people and they insult me. I speak the truth and then I'm slandered. My own family rejected me years ago. Do you understand? This is DAILY for me, living on the line for Christ just to be rejected by those who claim to love Him. What do you think it looks like to bear a burden and be mocked by the ignorant? This is my cross. What does yours look like?

I know what lies ahead for you who fail to repent. Do I care if I go to your meetings and conferences? Do I lose sleep when I respond to what appears to be someone searching for a friend and I try to befriend them and I never hear from them again? No. These things are the mass majority, of people looking for an answer and being discouraged because "they didn't ask for this," and "the answer is too hard." Walking down a dark alley is easier, so they go with that.

I didn't ask for my life to pan out the way it has, either. I'm not above you. I just didn't give up. I didn't get any advice. Books weren't out yet about PTSD for my husband and I. Retreats for spouses didn't exist. Do you not have a clue how easy it is for you? How much easier it is for you than it was for my husband and I?

Pull through it if you're determined. Do or die, right? Failure simply isn't an option if you put it out of your mind. It's not easy or possible to just "get over it," and I'm not saying that, so don't hear what I am not saying. I am saying you guys reject the truth because it doesn't sound right, and then you wonder why life seems so impossible and hopeless. Stop looking to people for answers and look to God instead. The only reason it doesn't sound right is because you don't know the truth. If the truth was in you, you would embrace more of it. Chaplains wonder why spiritual growth is so stunted in the military, but we don't wonder. The answer is right in front of their faces.

I'm telling you right now that my husband and I have valuable information about God in PTSD/TBI and God in government and God in CHURCH that you willfully overlook for the sake of money and a wide audience. But ask us to speak and I almost guarantee you, you will be hated as much as we are by thousands.

Why would we be hated by people who talk about love and healing and ache for it in their lives? Because people hate Jesus and we represent Him. He loved and healed, but He called people to repent and believe in Him, and to live in such a way that proved their repentance and faith true. That's basic Christianity 101. Don't forget that neither the military nor an MDiv exempts a person from the truth or the consequences of rejecting it. Being blown up in combat doesn't mean God overlooks sins and holds the mangled to a different standard, and being able to recite the Westminster Confession of Faith will be your elaborate downfall if you disengage yourself from the matters of the heart with the lame, the weak, and the crippled by life who are further crippled by those who enable stunted growth. In many cases, these warriors get suicidal because the fluffy spiritual answers people give them are just fluff, and they can't make the connection between war and the fluff. I haven't had my brain messed up from combat and I can't connect the two either, so I'm not sure who these "highly educated" spiritual leaders think they're kidding. If you missed my post about PTSD in the Old Testament, check it out.

You're not above God, sir or ma'am. You're subject to God's rule and judgment just as much as the man you secretly or not-so-secretly think you are better than because you served and he didn't. But sure. Keep those seats warm, guys. Keep at it. You're turning people into sheeple and rejoicing because your programs are growing as a result of coddles and ear-tickling but are void of the combative spiritual training that the men need in order to be men and lead regardless of their limps, missing pieces, and tangled memories. Why can't those who have fully-functioning and uninjured brains figure this out? Either they know the truth and live a lie, or they don't know the truth and they are still living a lie. Are they merely deceived like thousands even though they are in places of spiritual leadership? Do we blame the government for even silencing chaplains who pray in Jesus' name, or will not a chaplain do what is right even if this world says it is wrong? All of it leads to judgment. All of it.

Wake up, Christians.

Justifying the Imprisonment of Civilians

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I've been researching FEMA camps, Obama's dictatorship, New World Order, the NDAA, and I'm beginning to look {more] into state-governed militias. These keywords are not foreign to people. Most just don't want to talk about it all. The following video is about a year old. Plenty of people have their heads buried in the sand, and spend time watching tv shows and reading blogs of little importance, so hopefully this will circulate just a little and inspire people to think about things. Many are concerned that government "prolonged detention camps," or "concentration camps" are nothing more than conspiracy theories to get people hyped up and fearful, but truthfully, the absurdity of a subject is not what dictates its validity. Obama or no Obama in November, this is going to happen. These things have been planned out for years and involve many people, assistants, organizers, facilitators, etc. You might be voting for Romney or some other candidate, or maybe not voting at all. I guarantee you, all candidates are aware of these things.

And since I know there are people from DC who read this blog, I'm assuming I'm being watched like a hawk, so if my blog gets shut down in the near future, I'll know why. I'm sure being a Marine wife and a Christian, I'm already on some domestic terrorist list somewhere anyway. Then there's the obvious: I'm against all of this crazy crap. I know it has to happen for Jesus to come back, but nothing in me "likes" it.

I've seen footage of fields with mass amounts (like 125,000 with room for more than one person in each) of "casket liners," and these storage fields are throughout the country. They're stackable for ease of organization and/or transport.

People with knowledge of plans and future courses of action pass on these discussions, saying population stabilization is necessary because there are simply too many people in the world, and that we have no need to fear, but considering border control (which they bring up) doesn't fix the population in the country currently but is rather a mere preventive proposal, the caskets we can conclude, are for Americans, too. It's only going to take a few years. How do they deem who is desirable? Who gets to live? Who is worthy, according to the government? You see the problem.

I'm not afraid. I'm just passing on information. The Obama administration is making it so that he can overrule the government as well as the military, and I'm certain the "casket liners" will be used for the bodies those who oppose and try to retaliate, whom, no doubt, will be the American people and its military. You can look up many more videos about all of the key phrases above and do some searching for yourself. People think it's just conspiracy because of how far removed from our way of life and understanding it is. It's gonna make Hilter look like a really good guy by comparison.



Hopefully now you see how this links with my post a few days ago called "Doped by the DoD." I told you, the guys will be needed to fight. They won't be of much help if they're stupified by their VA pills or snapping because suddenly the VA doesn't have refills for them. Think about it.
"1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2 looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted. 4 In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood."  -Hebrews 12:1-4 ESV

Worthless People

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How can I be so cold as to say that there are worthless people? Ask an infantryman and he'd tell you that for sure, there are people in this world who are just plain evil and serve no good purpose whatsoever. It sure does help to know that the enemy he's fighting against has no inherent "good" in them when he takes him out. He's following commands to bring about a peaceful end, and because of this, he doesn't have to wrestle with taking out someone good, or, at least not right away while he's on the mission. But taking this a step further, into the Bible, is it unloving to call a person worthless, especially since we are all made in God's image? Does being made in His image credit us instantly with an amount of worth? And if so, what is that worth? If we're worth anything, it would be unfair and unjust for a 'good God' to send someone of value to hell, right?

Yes, it would be unfair for a good God to send valuable/good/worthy people to Hell, and it would be unfair and inconsistent for an evil god to send bad/wicked/unworthy people to Heaven. Either scenario would throw logic to the wayside and commit the very basic logical fallacy of calling evil, good, and good, evil. Straight out, people commit this fallacy every day.

I sought to figure out today what it would look like for someone of the belief that all people have worth and are good to come across God's description of sinners in the Old Testament. I found Bible verses that actually call people worthless. (Need to read that one again?)

Judges 20:13
Now therefore give up the men, the worthless fellows in Gibeah, that we may put them to death and purge evil from Israel.” But the Benjaminites would not listen to the voice of their brothers, the people of Israel.

1 Samuel 2:12
[ Eli's Worthless Sons ] Now the sons of Eli were worthless men. They did not know the LORD.

1 Samuel 25:25
Let not my lord regard this worthless fellow, Nabal, for as his name is, so is he. Nabal is his name, and folly is with him. But I your servant did not see the young men of my lord, whom you sent.

1 Samuel 30:22
Then all the wicked and worthless fellows among the men who had gone with David said, “Because they did not go with us, we will not give them any of the spoil that we have recovered, except that each man may lead away his wife and children, and depart.”

2 Samuel 23:6
But worthless men are all like thorns that are thrown away, for they cannot be taken with the hand;

1 Kings 21:10
And set two worthless men opposite him, and let them bring a charge against him, saying, ‘You have cursed God and the king.’ Then take him out and stone him to death.”

Job 11:11
For he knows worthless men; when he sees iniquity, will he not consider it?

So obviously there were "worthless men," and through these verses we read what these worthless men did. I think it's significant that they were actually called worthless in Scripture. The Hebrew word for worthless is beliya`al (bel-e-yah'-al), meaning without profit, having worthlessness; by extension, destruction, ungodliness,  naughtiness, wickedness. It is essentially the same in both languages, only more specific regarding people, because I could say a paper cup is worthless, but it doesn't have any life in it, so it can't be called 'wicked' or portrayed as having an eternal wickedness.
The response a person might have to this is "That can't be right. Worthless can't really mean 'worthless.' People were made in God's image (Gen. 1:27) and it wouldn't make sense for what God made to have no value. They miss something important, though. Sin. The only "worth" we can claim to have as humans who are unsaved is the quality of life that God has given us, in that we have been given attributes of God with which to live: Consciences to distinguish right from wrong, the ability to love, to think, to create, etc. But none of that is beyond a conscious wicked person to do. The insurgents that the U.S. military take out in the middle east are wicked men! And if I lie, I'm a liar, if I murder, I'm a murderer, and on and on. All who do wicked things are wicked. All are workers of iniquity (Psalm 5:5; 11:5). This is a huge factor in the equation, because those insurgents were made in God's image, but what have they done? They've promoted terror around the world and continually ruin  people who will not worship and live the way they live, under Sharia law with their prophet Muhammad and their false god, Allah. It's wickedness, and if it were not so, they'd walk away from people who reject their message like our Savior Jesus instructed the disciples in Luke 9:5. They'd wipe the dust from their "peaceful" shoes and leave town as a testimony instead of blowing off the heads of unbelievers.
Let's get this straight: God did not make sin, and so whatever worthiness a person wants to bestow on a person's sinful condition, needing salvation, must take this into account. We were made in God's image, but being made in God's image is the extent of it. God didn't sin. We did. In Adam, we all fell (Gen. 3, Rom. 5:12, 1 Cor. 15:22). That's the original sin that started it all, trickled on down through humanity because of God's curse on Adam and eve for sinning, which came as a result of direct disobedience to a simple command God gave Eve. We are all born creatures of wrath because of Adam's sin (Rom. 3:23, Eph. 2:3), even though we've been made in God's image, and until God saves any of us, we are born just to live and go to hell (Rom. 9), which still brings God glory in the end because it proves He is who He says He is. God gives a person their worth, their value, and their salvation. 
The issue is about who is worthy in God's eyes of being called worthy because of the worthiness that He of Himself gives to a person. And while it's not the focal point of this article, it is important to emphasize that God is not the author of sin, but rather, the redeemer and cleanser of it! God put an end to the effects of sin on our eternal souls through the atoning work of Christ Jesus on the cross (1 John 2:2), unto all who believe in Him and turn from their sins, and that turning from sin is only possible because God puts value in us (Rom. 8:28-3) and therefore gives us the gift of repentance (Acts 11:18, 2 Tim. 2:25), not because of us or our merit or worthiness, but because of His own (Jer. 17:9, Ps. 96:4, Rom. 3:10, Eph. 2:8-9, Rev. 4:11), for His good pleasure (Phil. 2:13). 
In the Old Testament verses I shared earlier, God commanded the Israelites to put the worthless, sinful, wicked men out of the camps. His people alone had honor and rights to be there. They were worthy. In the same manner, Christ died for those who believe in Him. Not for those who don't believe in Him. Those people are counted unworthy and have no business in Heaven: No right to be in God's territory, as the Israelites were God's chosen in the Old Testament. In Matthew 7:19, trees that do not bear good fruit are cut down and thrown into the fire. They contain no value. This is how it is for unbelievers, too, which is who the Matthew 7 verse speaks of. This 'worthlessness' is an attribute of humans, with consequences for being wicked. Today in churches, we are commanded to confront a sinner who refuses to repent three times (Matt. 18:15-17), and if they refuse to turn from their sin, they are put out of the Church (1 Cor. 5, Eph. 5:6-12). They would have remained in the Church if they were of it (1 John 2:19).
Now, I have no problem telling someone that without repenting of their sin and believing in Jesus they are worthless, because it's true. I'm not interested in giving people a sense of false hope. The rebuke that follows this is, "it doesn't sound loving and kind at all." That's the issue people have with it. In fact, such a message sounds downright evil to many. But what is the good news, anyway? "You are worth a lot so God will give you more worthiness?" No. The good news is that "6 For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. 7 For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— 8 but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. 9 Since, therefore, we have now been justified by his blood, much more shall we be saved by him from the wrath of God. 10 For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, now that we are reconciled, shall we be saved byhis life. 11 More than that, we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation." (Romans 5:7-11) The unrighteous have no righteous merit at all. 
Worthless in English means worthless in Hebrew, so I don't see the problem. Is telling someone they're totally depraved and need to repent easier to swallow? Is telling a pharisee that he's a son of the Devil worse (John 8:44)? No. Still, it's true. Even if the word "worthless" in the verses above is saying "wicked," is it not semantics at that point? Again, wickedness is not of value. 
Granted, knowing this does not change our charge to love others as Christ loved us (John 13:34-35, 1 John 4:19), nor does it change our command to preach the gospel (Matt. 28:19-20). There simply is no reason to place value on every single person when Scripture clearly states that there were and are worthless individuals.
I am not saying that a person cannot have worth if they are at first worthless and then God saves them. This is about worthlessness before God, and not simply before society. But consider again that if a person doesn't repent of a sin and sits in the Church week after week, after rebukes three times, we are commanded to put them out of the Church. They are of no worth (and are not of us) in the Church, or they'd remain. (I think I'm being pretty consistent in what I'm saying here.) We are all born creatures of wrath because of Adam's sin (Rom. 3:23, Eph. 2:3), even having been made in God's image, and until God saves any of us, we are born just to live and go to hell (Rom. 9), which still brings God glory in the end because it proves He is who He says He is. God gives a person their worth, their value, and their salvation. The issue is about who is worthy in God's eyes of being called worthy because of the worthiness that He of Himself gives to a person.

All of this might hurt feelings, but how much greater then is God's love for those who are of Him, who are saved by grace through faith? "38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Rom. 8:38-39)
I wrote all of this out because there are many pastors even, who with their schooling and their churches reject this, essentially calling God evil, because in their eyes, God is unjust in sending people He calls wicked and unworthy to Hell. I am not able to correct them, but I certainly can warn women who read this blog against the error of attributing value and worth to every single human on the planet. Many say that calling someone worthless is unrighteous and wicked, which is in of itself, wickedness. It's important to know this because if we say all people have worth, all people have to be good, and if all people are good and can be as good as the deem necessary to be close to or right with God, by their own works and their own admission, Christ died in vain (Gal. 2:17-21). Worthless people exist. We still need to give them the gospel and we absolutely still need to be loving examples of Christ in their lives! We don't know who God will save or how He will use each of us who are saved to minister to sinners, but we can certainly agree that it is God who grants repentance to wicked, worthless, and depraved, hell-bound sinners, which all of us who are elect once were (1 Cor. 6:9-11), but for the grace of God go we.